Just not very interactive with the world at the moment…. eh time to sleep.

Playing to much League of Legends (some what addicted…. I blame three certain people for this - summoner name: Creveal).

Currently sick and it’s getting me down or down and it’s making me sick. Sometimes it’s hard to tell which way it is. :(

Not sure what else to say, this whole family thing now that partner and her kids moved in is taking some getting use to. Thankfully the kids don’t really seem to care what I wear and I’ve keep it fairly tame I guess.

Things I should do:

• See gender therapist
• Get face lasered

Things I will do:

• Be a slack arse
• Play to much Lol, WoT, SWTOR (occassionaly), XCOM and well you get the point

Funny really given all the people in this house now I still feel pretty lonely.

Peace love and meh!!

Universally speaking you’re nothing.

You’niversally speaking you’re gravity.

That website is not what it use to be… lol but then it was a very long time ago. Removed due to flogging a dead horse.

I’ve not been saying very much lately because well frankly I just feel like all I have to say is negative… Am really starting to wonder if I need to go back on medication. I really don’t want to… I hated it before and I’ve been off for 2 years and thought I was doing ok…. :(

I have little to no sense of joy in my life. I’m alive out of a sense of duty. My whole life I have done my duty, done what is expected of me, been responsible.
I play computer games to forget…
I look for Masochistic play from my partner because the physical pain can mask the mental for awhile…
I’m stuck it seems unsure or unable to move forward and with no true understanding of where I want to go.
I want things that can only happen in a fantasy world and I don’t know what I want that could happen in reality.
I’m having a bad day :(
I don’t want to kill myself at least cause that just seems pointless too lol.

Happy new year. The new years party I attended was interesting.
Let’s see what this year will bring.
Who knows?

I’m sorry the blog you have reached is currently unattended. If you like to leave a brief message in the ask box. We will respond in the new year.
Or.
I’z on holiday foo, hit me up when I get home!